ANNOUNCEMENT: The winner of this weekend’s $50 giveaway is L.J.! Our very own Sunshine Faerie!!! Congrats, Dear Sister!!! 
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Spicy Fairy
Hey everyone! I figure since December is almost here, we should purge ourselves and confess so we can have a fresh start.
My Confessions;
~ I was doing so well with my workout plan, until Thanksgiving rolled around. Not to point the finger or anything, but I legit couldn’t put on jeans for Black Friday shopping. But it’s alright; “No-Pants Mondays” are what I live for. Thank goddess for leggings & sweaters! 
~ I have the hardest time letting nature run its course. I’m still trying to understand how to do it, but in reality I just need to stop analyzing it and let life happen. I can’t say “I’m trying,” because letting go shouldn’t involve intentional actions… Long story short, I’m a living, breathing contradiction.
~ I’m extremely vain. Every time I see a mirror, I have to check and analyze myself. I wonder if it’s just because I’m 17 or if being an only child has any correlation.. Regardless, I need to care less about what people think of me, because it holds me back from a lot.
~ I’m always positive, except with relationships. If you’re a regular here, you probably know that I’ve never had a boyfriend, and this makes me really skeptical about “love.” I know I love my mom, dad, and friends, but I’ve never known the love of a significant other. I know I’m young, but when I see kids my age in the halls holding hands, kissing, etc, it makes me feel like something is wrong with me. I’ve been told that I’m “a 10,” that I’m gorgeous and nice and all the compliments, but it makes me feel superficial and temporarily fulfilled. Because all I’ve known is the love for looks, it’s made me more vain. It’s kind of a vicious cycle, but it makes me open my eyes; I walk away if something isn’t genuine. I just have to believe that some day I’ll meet someone that loves me for me, not what I look like.
~ I’m “creative,” but I can’t always see it. I dance all the time, I’ve impressed my drawing teacher, and I’ve been told I’m a good writer, but my ego doesn’t always let me appreciate my capabilities.
~ I’m much better at advising and listening to others than I am at advising or listening to myself.
~ I’m 99% indecisive in all of my decisions, even if it’s simply picking an entree at a restaurant!
Sometimes we need to confess our downfalls in order to see our true beauty; after spilling my sappy life to you, I now see that I have plenty of good traits as well. I plan on starting December in a productive & positive way, not letting these truths get in the way of my goals. How about you?
Oh, how FUNNY! I was going to do True Confessions for tomorrow’s magic!! Thank you for beating me to it! And Spicy Fairy, I have to tell you that this weekend I was talking about you to a couple of my friends and instead of calling you “My babysitter” I said “My baby sister”! What an interesting, beautiful slip!
So about vanity, I was also EXTREMELY vain when I was 15-17 years old, often staring at myself in the mirror for long periods of time. I think it’s age-appropriate and all about our own self-discovery.
And by the way, I think you’re FABULOUS!!! Yes, you are beautiful, but your outer beauty is only a small part of what makes you so extremely WONDERFUL!!!
My confessions:
* I really like the way my baby stinks! HAHA!! I love the smell of his baby poo and his baby toots (at least until he starts eating solid food, that’s when it starts to smell bad…but until then it’s just breastmilk poop and toots and I LIKE it!)
* One of the appeals of having a new baby around is that I get to pick, pick, pick! I pick his eye-goop, his little white snots, and his cradle cap!
* I haven’t tried to cure his cradle cap with homeopathy…cause I like picking it instead!!
(oh my, this is so much fun! I LOVE True Confessions!)
* I have hair on my big toes…so I shave them!
* I’m a junk food junkie! Always have been, always will be! And I LIKE it!!!!!!!! (Bring on the chips and chocolate chip cookies!)
* I have a sneaking suspicion that we as a society put too much emphasis on what we should eat and what we shouldn’t eat…and that perhaps we can eat ANYTHING if we eat it with love and appreciation. Along these lines…I’m starting to think that candy isn’t as bad for our children as we’ve been taught. How can something that brings them so much JOY be bad for them? It’s our BELIEFS about food that make them good or bad. And THAT is my FINAL ANSWER!!!
* One of these days I’m going to bring my boys to the grocery store and let them put WHATEVER they want in the cart! It’ll be a shopping trip just for them and I’ll say YES to everything!!! Doesn’t this sound like such a FUN experiment and experience!!!
Well! That was wonderful! Thank you, Spicy Fairy!!!!
More Magic
* Fun conversations with my Mamakins and Popsidoodles last night!
* My beloved hubby and I through a joint effort cleaned the years of scum-buildup in our dishwasher and now it doesn’t smell anymore! (Oh baby, THIS is magic!)
* Chili! (My 6 year old ate 5 bowls!)
* The FREEDOM to relax today as that is what my body is SCREAMING at me to do today!
* LIFE!!!!
* TRUE CONFESSIONS!!!!
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I love you Kate! I love the “baby sister” slip, that’s awesome & true! Your confessions are so brave and so positive compared to mine; you truly are an inspiration! <3
Spicy!
Much of what you’ve written are very Libra kinds of traits!
Even before I saw a picture of you, I knew you were beautiful because of who you are!
Much love to you!!!
Aww thank you libra-sister
love you too! <3
~I also have the hardest time letting nature run its course and try to hard to make thinks happen a certain way always from a fear base, its something I’ve been thinking about a lot this past few weeks and wondering how different life would be if I found this easier.
~I get totally obsessed with fictional characters and find it hard to get back into the real world when I’m engrossed in a good book.
~ I really struggle at times mothering boys, I don’t know how to relate to them sometimes or how best to parent them.
~ I lack trust in my feelings and the choices I make.
~ Today I ate smarties for lunch, in secret, and made the kids a healthy lunch. this is not a first!
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My friend bought me beautiful Lillys and my kitchen smells amazing
I had a day to myself yesterday and spent it snuggled on the couch with movies
A cry and a chat with my best friend
Other wonderful and supportive friends
I totally lose myself in the characters in a novel too! I’ve even had times where it’s taken me a day or two of ‘grieving their loss’ before I could move on!!!
It takes me more than a day or too sometimes, I have actively not read for a while to avoid that feeling!
Me three! I have to avoid novels because I get so caught up in them I don’t want to do anything else! lol!
Here’s a true confession for my parents (heehee!): When I was 15 years old I was really into V.C. Andrews. I brought one of her books to school and couldn’t concentrate on anything else. I feigned sickness so I could go home and just READ!
I think I can relate to all of your confessions; I’m the same way with books, I sometimes lack confidence in my decisions, and I’ve thought about how I as a mother (in the future, obviously!) would parent boys if it happened… And I love cry-chats with best friends. Love to you!
I can totally relate about books! After finishing a book, my thought will often continue in the “voice” the author uses in the book. I survived high school by always having a novel on top of the pile of books I carried around at school. I often read during class. When I finished a book, it was like surfacing into reality. I’d usually take one look at my life and dive right into another novel. I never read non-fiction. These days I don’t read novels very often because, Like Kate, I want to be able to keep dealing with other things!
What a bunch of book worms we are!
Wow thank you bookworm buddies, I’m glad to know I’m not alone in this
True Confessions are always so much fun!
- I am a hypochondriac! Lately, I’ve been really bad (and no surprise, I’ve had to be at the hospital everyday with my mom, which has not helped matters)
- I have totally fallen off my diet/exercise routine and despite feeling like I’ll get back to it everyday, I’ve managed to avoid exercise and increase my intake of less-than-diet foods
- I love to play Tetris. I am the Queen of Tetris, but I can blow seriously inappropriate amounts of times playing
- I am a total asspert. I love to speak as an authority on topics I know nothing about — (my aunt says I should have been a lawyer or a politician!!!)
- I have been overspending and cannot honestly figure out how to afford Christmas
- My default is to be right! Oh, how I love to be right! But, thankfully, I’ve learned to temper this more than ever!
Ahhhhhhhhhhh
My Magic:
~ Winning the weekend giveaway! Thank you so much Sparkle! I love you!
~ Having yummy pizza with the boys while we watching the Canadian Football championship game on tv
~ Spending the afternoon with my mom and knowing she is feeling better (especially when she snapped at me!!lol)
~ A great conversation with my beloved whom I am missing so much
~ Having all my mom’s fancy tv’s and extra channels. I’m usually not a tv person, but it’s been fun to watch all kinds of movies the past few days
~ Being able to help my mom
~ Visiting with family
~ Loving with all my being
“Asspert”! LOL! Is that a Libra trait too, ’cause my beloved hubby has a serious gift for this!
(and don’t worry about affording Christmas ~ the fact that you won the $50 shows that you know how to attract abundance!)
We are definitely libra-sisters sunshine! If I’m not right, I get really fiesty!
if asspert means good at bs-ing things, then I’d say that’s a strength of mine as well 
ahhh true confessions!!
I too am a picker and im ok w/ it but instead of picking things on me all the time, i do to all my kids, if i can catch them, and my hubby is a really good sport about it, most of the times!!!!
my belly button stinks stinks stinks,not sure why, but i kind of like it!!
i never clip my toe nails or fingernails b/c i pick them!!
i love candy and must have some everyday and this i have passed on to my kids!!!
i think candy esp chocolate is a main food group!!
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a great long weekend w/hubby, kids and friends,
a nice restfull day today!!
a wonderful pasta lunch w/ my kids, and a big clean up after w/ all my kids helping out and even doing laundry!!
i love our kitty kats!!
i so love having nothing planned for this week–freedom!!
my hubby and i being on the same page!!
xmas shopping for thekids is pretty much done, so much fun!!
waiting for some purchases to come in the mail!!–for me!!!!
my friend kate thanks so much for the great email and for the understanding–love u!!
Oh, how I LAUGHED at your belly button stink! I always LOVE your true confessions!
Ya know, the other day I just cleaned out my belly button ~ I never knew that belly lint was real! Yuck! But I admire your bravely honest confessions
and right on about chocolate! <3
True confessions:
I am really uncomfortable with my weight.
I am always concerned about what others think of me.
I hate discussing money and financial issues with my husband
I get sad often which I am also noticing is so connected to my diet
falling off eating 90% raw and back to less than 50/50
magic:
noticing that I feel sad when I eat too much cooked foods and not enough raw
knowing that when my husbnad and I do discuss our finances we are closer for it and I am less stressed, too
my now year old appreciating so much every card and present recieved and has played with each several times already and re-read every single card. He is so appreciative, I admire this.
menu planning and sticking fairly close to it during grocery shopping to stay on budget for two weeks in a row!!!!!!
seeing Peter Pan this past weekend and enjoying the show so much even though stressed about the money we spent for it that we couldn’t really spare.
mild weather!!
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knitting socks for my dad and I can’t wait until they are all done so he can wear them. I love making things for other people that will appreciate what is made and the love gone into it.
glad I have more magic than confessions today!!
Well, if you’re concerned with what I think about you, I think you’re ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS!!!!!!
I agree with Kate; you’re wonderful! PS; Your dad is going to love his socks, that’s so sweet & creative of you! Love to you
OK, I confess that I am a total slacker mom! I’m supposed to have ds wearing his eye patch for an hour or two a day, and I think we managed an hour once. We’re homeschooling… well, unschooling more or less and many days he just plays. I find it really hard to get him to do things he doesn’t want to do, and a lot of the time I just don’t.
I was supposed to take him to meet with the very kind speech pathologist at the school a couple weeks ago, but when the day came, I totally forgot about our early morning appointment and I have yet to call her to apologize and make another one.
I yell. Not every day, nowhere near as much as my parents did, but I do yell and sometimes I cuss in front of my kid and I have, on a few occasions, told my son to shut up.
I really need to scrub the shower stall. It’s not disgusting, yet, but it’s kinda grody.
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Another gorgeous warm day! I know it’s climate change, but I still enjoyed it.
Spending 2 hours at the local dog park/conservation land with my son, his friend M, and our dog. Spent a long time at the big field where our dog played with other dogs, ran and swam and played with balls and sticks, then we took a hike in the woods.
Keeping my sense of humor and, without raising my voice, firmly and (pretty) politely telling the people doing the robo-calls for Newt Gingrich to take our name and number off their list. They were calling every.single.day. Glad to be done with that.
Having a little time to sit and read while ds had his occupational therapy.
Meeting a really cool woman when I went back to the dog park around sunset while ds was at Taekwon-Do, walking and having a great conversation.
The chocolate chip and candied ginger chunk cookie I got at the health food store… oh, yummmmm! So good I’ve been forgetting about dinner! lol Time to eat some of those fresh greens I also bought at the store! Oh, yeah, and all the produce was 20% off! My lucky day!
We all have our slips, it’s totally understandable!
and ohmygosh that cookie sounds amazing!
Oh my! I’ve told my little 3 year old to shut up more than once (and even shut the f*&k up when I’m at my total wit’s end!). Seriously, with how much my hubby and I swear, we’re surprised our children don’t! lol!
I forgive myself and love myself ANYWAY!
Spicy Fairy, Grama Fairy here ( Kate’s Mamakins. And by the way, I’m glad she’s found her “baby sister”. But that is another story.) Count yourself lucky that you haven’t had a boy friend yet. You have saved yourself from the drama, angst and tears of early teenage “love”. Something better is coming for you. Keep the faith. With love.
She speaks from experience! (MY experience!)
Aww you are so sweet! Thank you so much for your kind, inspiring words. I will hold out & look forward to it. <3
Kate! You and I are one and the same. Seriously I could have written each of your confessions myself, including the very last one you added just above.
This made my evening to come and read!!
One more confession (since Kate stole all mine): I am an artist and I HATE doing art with my kids. That is all for now, lol.
And reading THIS made my morning!
Alexa, I’m 30 and I STILL stare in the mirror whenever I see one! My friends call me “the bird”.
Nothing wrong with wanting to stare at something beautiful!!
The dating thing – You deserve someone AMAZING and there is nothing wrong with having high standards and waiting for someone AWESOME!!