For the last two months I’ve been home with the 3 kids by myself, while Tim is out in apple orchards grafting. He works sunrise to sunset, making it possible for us you and I to eat delicious apples! He’s such a hard worker, and seemingly has endless energy. I usually feel the same, though the last two months have taken its toll on me – taking care of the kids, planning a wedding for 200 guests (it’s in less than two months now!), and creating inventory for a craft fair that will have 40, 000 customers. I’m in a state of complete overwhelm and things are slipping through the cracks. My usual multi-tasking, high energy self has given way to an exhausted, achy, crying, unsuccessful, flaky, stressed mama. I am allowing myself to just be here with no self-judgment, but it’s so foreign to me that I’m not exactly sure where to go with it. Then the phrase, “One step at a time” popped into my head. Such simple advice. Just keep taking whatever action, whatever baby steps that keep me moving forward, while simultaneously nurturing my inner child, making loving myself a priority.
Here’s how I’m working “One Step at a Time” Magic:
*Even though we didn’t get into our “backup” craft fair (I never fully had my heart invested it), I still believe that we can get into the one we really want! I put a copy of the application CD in my special treasure box and made a wish! I’m also continuing to work on the inventory, because when we get in, we’ll need lots!
*I don’t have much time for self-care, but I’ve made going to bed early and eating well priorities in my life.
*I am getting outside for exercise and fresh air, even if only for a few minutes.
*I am releasing perfectionism for “getting it done”. My “halfway” is usually still pretty good.
*Mini dates! When we saw each other a few weeks ago we did lots of mini-dates, where we just stepped outside and looked at the sky and connected.
Other Magic:
*Watching the cutest, sweetest documentary on Netflix last night. It’s called Being Elmo and it’s the heartwarming story of Kevin Clash, the puppeteer who does Elmo on Sesame Street. He rose up from a poor background to embrace puppeteering at age 9. His success brought me to tears more than once! Highly recommended!!! (even Elmo-haters would love the movie LOL)
*A weekend away from home, planning Fairy Congress with a great group of people. At the site where it is held, which happens to also be where we’re getting married this summer!
*My sweetie stopping work to come down and visit me!
*Hopefully seeing some friends while we’re out there. Their first child was just diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis too, and they’re having a hard time. I think that when they see how well Yemma is doing that they will be filled with hope.
*Speaking of Yemma doing awesome, we went to the Children’s Hospital this week and officially only have to go to the hospital every 3 months now, which will be the baseline for hospital visits for her lifetime. She’s gaining well, her lungs are strong and she’s vibrant!
I would love to hear your magic. Even if you are overwhelmed or stressed, remember that we can choose how we want to feel, and take action from that place. One step at a time, we can get through anything! Sending out love and happy energy to everyone today!!!
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