Fire Fairy
I choose to believe that when I’m in need my Grandpa is standing next to me cheering me on. And, now my Grandma is standing next to him, their arms entwined, with a gentle encouraging smile on her face. Yesterday was my grandfather’s birthday. A day before that was the anniversary of his death, which occurred 9 years ago – 8 weeks before my first baby was born. I’ve been a bit teary the past couple of days – remembering, missing, but also connecting and rejoicing.
Something happened to me a couple of years ago. I no longer needed to be purely scientific, analytical, skeptical, jaded. I could be accepting, fantastical, believing, full of faith that I am surrounded by spirit guides, and loved ones helping me through this intense world. (Hey, if I believe that flowers talk to me, I guess I can believe that my dear grandpa is cheering me on!)
Before the birth of my little girl, I was blessed to talk to my friend, who is also a very amazing intuitive. She told me what I partially already knew. What she told me gave me such strength and grace. At the birth of my first child, my grandfather was standing by my shoulder cheering me on, telling me I could get through this 3 day labor, telling me I could birth this baby even though no one else in the room (beside my dear hubby) thought I could. That thought, that image kept me going throughout this recent pregnancy. I decided I would be actively calling on him when labor became strong. When the time came, I called out to him by singing his lullaby (and I was so thankful that the lullaby was not complicated) This labor was the opposite of the first. it was fast and INTENSE. I went from 3 cm to holding my precious one in 70 minutes. This was not one of those, I-didn’t-even-know-I-was-in-labor deals. The experience was fast and crazy, and included me saying I changed my mind and trying to leave the room.
Yesterday I was thinking about this and thought, yes he pulled through, again. He got my labor moving, and got me safely through it. But then I burst out laughing. If there was ever a next time of labor and birth, I would want to clarify to him, a man who probably never had the privilege to see his own babies born, that labor does not need to be that fast or intense, slow and steady is just as lovely. Better yet, Grandpa, bring Grandma along, because it is always wonderful to have a woman by your side.
I have two beautiful cousins, sisters, who are due this spring, one week apart. I have total confidence that both women will have these two special angels at their shoulders, cheering them on, keeping them safe, loving their new babies.
What a beautiful gift it is to be able to turn it over to my angels, knowing I have help and my own cheering section.
Little Fire Fairy with her Angel
I would love to hear a story of when you felt your angels were cheering you on, guiding you, loving you.
Love and Peace
MEM:
~ tea
~ a date to make muffins with my 5 year old, our days just slip by and I just don’t bake enough with my sweeties. So, we made a date, put it down for our “focus time”
~music class with my little girl, what a joy this class is for me, and for her.
~ a clean home, we are keeping up with it and it feels good
~ the last day of what felt like a long month, out with the old, in with the new!
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